Monday, December 09, 2013

38 weeks

At this point, I'm getting just about ready. I'm not sure if I am the first person to say that they wished that the baby waited until the final paper was submitted but yes, I did say that. Today, I submitted my last final for classes and I'm all game now. Last week the doctor said that there was no progress. Apparently, the little one is comfortable and quite happy where he is. I figured as much. Today I went walking and I could only do a half of what I used to do before but it was still some exercise and I felt much better after I walked. It's a lot better than sitting around the house. Right now, the best part of it all is that people are cheering you on as if it is a little race to some unforeseen finish line. The worst part are those stretch marks that decided to pop up just when I thought I'd escaped them. Aside from reading about what to expect, I have pretty much zoned out everyone's horror stories and I'm keeping myself in a happy state of oblivion. I figure that I'll deal with whatever has to come in a week or two for the most.

While speaking on that topic, that is pretty much what I have come to do with most advice that I get. I know that people mean well but as someone who's excited to be a new parent, I would like to live the experience also. We are quite lucky to have family around but even so, we are both very independent and very territorial. I am not sure how it will play out but I think we just need some time to spend with our little one alone when he is born. I may end up changing my mind but I do believe that I've made the best decision. I'd listen but at the same time, I would like to learn on my own and believe me, relatives and people who've been through it are all too willing to let you know everything. The only thing is that I would rather ask for help if I need it than to feel as if it is imposed on me.

The house is just about ready for a baby welcome. We probably need the weekend coming up to finish up on a few minor details if our little one will allow it. Either way, his room is set up and I've put out the things that I think he will need most once he comes home...the diapering things and the smallest clothes that were gifted to him. It's the cutest thing looking at the tiny little clothes and thinking of the little person that will be fitting in them soon enough. It's a very warm feeling you get.

Lastly, it took us a while to decide on a name. We've pretty much found one but I have kept it to myself. Admittedly, I've told a little lie whenever anyone asks. Ami has told one or two people but I asked him to stop. I'm not sure why it matters to me to keep it quiet until the little one is born but I think it will be better after we see him and figure out if the name fits. In any case, it will only be a week or two for the most before he's born and everyone knows his name.

Sunday, December 01, 2013

Three more weeks...more or less

It's the last three weeks. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I am not sure what to expect and would love to see the little guy's face but at the same time, I'm not sure if we have everything ready for him. Either way, he's not going to stay in me forever and he's going to make his debut sometime this month. My mom and mother-in-law both say that you follow the full moon, three days before or three days after. I'm not sure about any days except that I'm hoping that I get the semester at the university over with and my two pending research papers written and submitted before he's born. I'm not even sure about completing the school semester anymore.
Two weeks ago, I said I felt large. That was before I noticed stretch marks. I really thought that I had escaped them but nope I didn't. They all appeared overnight. I'm sure that they were there but I never noticed them until they became hard to miss. I can definitely say, you'll get them once you reach that point where your skin has maxed out and the baby's still growing....yep, those last few weeks when you think that you've gotten as large as you can but nature doesn't. I am definitely larger and I sure feel it. It's gotten a bit uncomfortable to maneuver around with the little guy because you just can't get up in a hurry or turn over or roll off the bed as easily as it used to be. Now, they're all these antics involved.
I cannot wait to wear non-maternity clothes and I'm pretty sure I'll throw out half of the things I wore during this time. I would love to wear my favorite pair of jeans once again. Haven't been able to fit into them since I was about 12 weeks. With all that being said though, I'm not sure if I'm tired of being pregnant. Some women are through as soon as they're 35-36 weeks but I enjoyed the little guy. He is a good guest and he's fun when he moves. I look forward to his movements. They're predictable and he never kicked a lot. He just loves to move around and stretch his legs:)
In the last two to three weeks, Ami has moved into a new role. He's become over-protective and his energies are focused on the baby. He's begun to "nest." He wants the house to be perfect for the baby and I try to tell him that the little guy will not care or notice anything but that's Ami's nature. He's a doer and this is a project that is taking all of his energies. In some ways, I can see how he draws more strength from his work and constantly being on the go. Ami has sought out to fix anything that is involved in the baby's life, from taking care of his clothes and storing them to making sure that he's safe when I drive him around. He's set up the baby's room and even went on to add crown moulding and larger baseboards while making sure that all the colors are matching in the room. It's a nice thing to watch and I am not going to intervene. I'll let him enjoy himself. In the meantime, I will cherish these last few days where we are and aren't yet a family.