Living in a country that is at war....

It was in March 2003 that America lay seige on Iraq. I remember praying a few hours before the attack and hoping that the President would call the attack off at the last minute. i know that it would never happen but it was the least i could do. Really, i guess no one thought that it would take this long. Not even me...and i was against it. the government said 6 months. that is a really looooonng six months...we are in 2006 now. how about trying 3 years. maybe one day later on in my life, i would look back and tell my grandkids that i lived through some really pressing times in US history. I remember an english teacher saying that we would look at history books with the pictures of people wearing gas masks and protective "astronaut-looking" suits looking for anthrax in buildings and wonder what was wrong with us back then.
i guess that is what it is like to live in "terror." now if one has ever listened to american news, there is a lot of sensationalism involved. some of these reporters get really excited when telling a story so i guess there was a lot to report...there still is. i am enthuastic about working but there is a limit when you are explaining things to others. you try not to let it out that you are really out to scare the daylights out of us.... for us living here, there was life before 9/11 and there is life after 9/11. before september 11th, we read the numbers 911 as the emergency number and we said "nine-one-one." most people today see it and read it as "nine eleven." it registers in my brain first as "nine eleven" now. i remember seeing that there was a newsflash on our local news while the reporter reported....something that went like....the US acted on pearl harbor on dec 8, 1941 (a day after it was attacked) and the station was counting how many days after september 11th had passed and it compared how nothing was done to retaliate.....
I have not changed my view from the seige on Iraq as yet and i have yet to change it. it was throwing a red herring at the american public. i just saw a video about conspiracy surrounding the attacks. I feel as if we...all the dwellers here have been lied to. Really, even if we have not been lied to, we have learnt to not trust as much as we used to. We cannot really trust what the government says...even for the most trivial thing....like what happened to the Florida Bright Futures Scholarship that was set up to pay for education.???????
i really love this country. the regular everyday people...who one does not see in the news, are really a joy to meet. they really are trusting people and they believe anything that is told to them....not because they are gullible but because they genuinely trust you and trust is a good thing to have from others. I try to do the same for others, not because i am being stupid, but i know it means something deep inside to know that you have someone's trust. however, the elites, i do not trust them. i cannot believe everything that they say and i will question because i believe that we are being lied to......
yesterday, for the first time in my life, i saw a military plane. it was flying in my neighborhood and flying really low. i told ami the minute i saw it that it was a military plane. as fate would have it, the day before, i was watching a movie that showed the differences between ordinary commercial jet planes and military aeroplanes. and yes, there was a lot more engines than an ordinary plane. i think there was two on each wing as opposed to the regular one on each side. and it was painted in the army green color. i do not know what it was doing in our neighborhood but the sight of it was disturbing....see, before, at the store, i first noticed that many of the people were not spending money as they used to and i kept telling my bosses that the country was entering a recession....seems more like on the verge of a depression (and mind you, south florida has a really strong economy...separate from the rest of the US)...but yesterday when i saw the plane it really visually drove in the fact that we are living in a country that is at war..........................