Moving on.....

There comes a time in every person's life that one realizes that the job one occupies no longer proves to be a challenge. When that time comes and the realization dawns, one must act quickly for the moment may become lost forever. life offers a person opportunties for growth and if they are not taken when the opportunity presents itself, it may very well be a long time before there is another such time. I think i am coming up to that point where i am realizing that i need to move on. I am seeing that if i do not act soon, i will remain where i am for a while to come. I cannot afford to do that so I've resolved to filling out my professional resume now and posting it on monster.com. it was actually furgie's advice but i was also thinking and i realized that i need to work in my field or in something that is not retail related. it's funny how one always ends up in a job one hates in the beginning of one's career. like me, i hated business. i understand it but the whole idea of getting rich off people didn't sit right with me. maybe, it's just my experience with the business field but it is enough for me to not want to be involved in the retail business anymore.
so, sometime at the beginning of june, i will post my resume and wait to be called for an interview.
there was one other thing that pushed me to compile my resume.
laila was my last reason for staying at my present job. i've worked there for almost four years now and it is a little accomplishment for me to know that i've stayed in the same job for that long time...especially since i was so young when i started there. at least i know i have tons of patience! laila was too quiet and i felt that she would have been overworked if i had left when furgie left. now, laila will leave in three weeks. she is going back to venezuela. i guess she reached the point where she could not take it anymore. she was not challenged by the job she was in and i understand that. her degree is one of venezuelan law and it is only applicable in venezuela. i know if she returns to her country, she will make it and live comfortably without having to work as hard as she does here.
initially, laila was supposed to leave in october but she's decided to leave sometime in the middle of june. i am very sad about the whole thing but i know it is for her and her family's best interest. i would want the best for her. she is like a second sister now. -----furgie will kill me for saying that. i know when laila leaves, it will take a monumental effort out of me to go back there. i know i will not stay much longer after her. i will miss her a lot. we have had some very interesting conversations together. not gossip, but conversations on rather intelligent topics. she is a very smart person.
my tutoring with the kid ended too. i am a little relieved. nah, i lied, i am very relieved. i sought advice from several people who were tutors themselves and they told me that if the kid was not showing interest then it made no sense to waste my time. i realized that i was doing that all along. in the end though, the kid did manage to raise his grade but i was not happy at all. i felt as if i were to give him an exam on all that i taught him, he would fail miserably. this depressed me further. but i learnt how valuable time was though...especially when it was not only my time involved but other people's time also.
i guess i cannot feel sorry for the bosses anymore. for all of us who have stayed there for more than a year, we know how they are. and i've reached the point where i am ready to tell them goodbye and good riddance. ami can tell anyone that the adjective i use the most when describing the job is "sucky." there are too many things that i am remembering that happened over the four years that i've spent there and i looked past them. now, they are coming back all at once....not only about my experiences but about all the other employees who i saw come and go there and now, i think it is my turn to watch myself leave...for my own sake.




PS: Calvin always has a face for every emotion....right now, my boy calvin and i share the same face.