Sadness

I think I have realized the one greatest sadness in this human life....seeing another human cry...especially a child. Something tears at my heart when I see this. We all deal with loss but it always hurts the same way every time. Today was the funeral for Abdon and Jesus' mom. It was done completely in Spanish but grief has no language. These children (Abdon, Jesus, and their sister Yarilis) stood crying over their mother's coffin as it was lowered in the grave. She was only 40. I couldn't think of anything to say to Abdon. The pain never goes away...it only becomes a dull throb but it is there. I've realized that part of being human is recognizing that these feelings are real and we all go through them at some point.
I know that their mom was sick but she did hold out as long as she could. She waited until the sister had celebrated her quinceanera. The thing about cancer is the suffering. The patient really suffers but you want them to stay so badly. you hope that they are the one miracle and sometimes we get disappointed. Today, Jesus, the "strong" one could no longer be strong. I felt so badly for these kids!
I can only pray one prayer and it is that these kids will always carry their mother's love with them, and that they remember her and what she taught them. She grew them up to be amazing and affectionate and they will always have that. Her suffering is done and their journey has begun.