Today, I am happy. Happiness is a fleeting thing in this human world though but I do think that being made human, we were made to feel and experience every emotion and in doing so, we learn. Today, I am 13 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Tomorrow, the second trimester begins and we get a little closer. I love the little one and he/she isn't even born yet!
Everyone speaks about changes that occur during pregnancy. There really haven't been a lot for me but here's some that I've noticed.
Sleeping/Waking: For one, I am typing this blog at 8:39 am! For anyone who knows me, they will agree that if I don't have to work, I will wake up in time to see the last 15-30 minutes of the morning...if I am lucky! I've been waking up before Ami in the mornings (around 6-ish) and he is the one who has to work! In fact, he is getting used to the idea of me waking up and seeing him off to work. The reason is of course having to go to the restroom and then I am ridiculously hungry to the point of feeling nauseous every morning. Ami jokes that the baby is definitely like him because it needs food all the time. Now that I am used to it, it's actually a good thing waking up and seeing the morning go by. Actually, it was something that I was very much afraid of when I thought of having a kid. I wasn't disciplined about going to bed and waking up on time and now it seems as if the problem has fixed itself.
Another thing I've noted about sleeping is I have some very strange dreams. It's like a guaranteed movie every time I go to bed...not that I like all of the dreams I have but I definitely have very real and very strange dreams.
Food Cravings/Aversions: So far, I haven't really felt any strange or bizarre cravings nor do I think my sense of smell is anymore intensified. But then again, I always thought my sense of smell was pretty good so maybe nothing changed. The only thing I crave are sweets but not the junk food kinds so much, just fruits or anything with fruits. Before, the only time of the year I ate fruits was during the times of the year I fasted. I just read that it could be that my body needs vitamin C. In fact, I think I have gotten very sensitive to the taste of intensely sweet. I don't like it. Only the fruits. They seem to have the right amount of sugar.
Another major change was that I started cooking more at home and when I am too lazy to cook, I go over more to my mom's house because she always has something and she's all too willing to have us come over and raid her kitchen. And that is exactly what I do...raid the kitchen. I was really looking for the food I grew up eating: the roti and vegetables in the morning, dAl and rice, and the curries. I totally love this change. Both the food and seeing my parents every day/ every other day.
In the beginning, I lost my love affair with coffee and I haven't yet really regained it. No big loss though. I cannot even think of what it was that I loved so much about coffee. Then again, I was drinking entirely too much of it anyway and what really made me stop was when I heard my little one's heartbeat for the first time and found out that the coffee was teratogenic in nature and it could accelerate the heartbeat. I've also pretty much cut out soda and started drinking fruit juice and water. The orange juice makes the vitamins go down. That's pretty much the only real aversion I've had...the sight of the vitamin bottle. Not the taste or anything (although I never liked the taste of medicine, the nasty, icky, disgusting coating on pills, or swallowing any pill....I'd rather take an injection!) but I could not look at the bottle. It may be something psychological though.
While I had very mild bouts of feeling nauseous, I didn't suffer terrifying bouts of nausea/morning sickness during this trimester and I can only pray that it continues this way. It may be something that runs in families because my mom wasn't really sick when she was having us either. The one downside to this was that I gained weight in the first trimester. Like about 8 lbs. Compared to feeling sick all the time though, I'd rather gain the weight. I can think of a hundred different ways to lose weight but throwing up at the sight of food will make me utterly depressed. I am not too worried though because for the last 2-3 weeks, I haven't gained anything more and I am making an effort to walk at least 3 days/ week. By the way, my clothes still fit but they're getting on the tight, soon-to-be-uncomfortable end. Trying to see how far I can get before going crazy with buying clothes though.
Mood Swings: I am irritable sometimes. Sometimes I get angry. I get teary eyed way too easily and for the most trivial things. Ami definitely didn't like these changes and I didn't really enjoy the irritability part because I'm usually a lot more easy going. I am making a conscious effort to observe and keep my moods in check though. Music helps a whole lot.
Lastly, I never really thought that I would be excited to go to a doctor's office as I am now. I'm not sure of anyone who loves going to the ob/gyn's but for now I love going there. I get happy when I hear that little heartbeat. It's worth every other embarrassment you feel in that office. For now, I have only one wish. I hope this little life, whether boy or girl, is born with love and compassion for humanity and an intense and unshakable faith in God or that I am able to teach this to my little one. With that, everything else will be okay.
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