Like sand in an hourglass.......

Today, i cannot explain what i really feel completely. i guess it is because of the duality of life. Laila handed in her keys for the store today. She has many things to do before she leaves and she cannot work and take care of her other matters. I understand that. She leaves in a week and some and for me, that week and some is like watching sand sift through an hourglass but only faster. However, she did promise to come to my house and look for me before she goes though. For that, i felt happy. I have found a friend in the midst of all the things that happened and all the unhappiness that we felt all the time, i found a true friend. Really, now, i guess i don't mind it after all. Now, the chats we had would be just memories.
Laila's leaving has really left me, as furgie will say it, "between a rock and a hard spot." i want to leave but i am uncertain. The only thing i am sure of doing right now is having my resume ready in case if i too leave suddenly. Well i guess whatever will happen will happen. i know better than to fight time.
I will explain how Laila handed in her keys later on. She seemed a little bit surprised that she actually pulled through it the way she did but she really did it. We laughed about it but i knew the underlying serious note. it was something she needed to do, regardless of how it turned out. she told me she was sorry for making me have to work the extra hours. I really do not mind it, because if it had happened today or even next week, i would still have to work the hours. Well i guess i will miss my friend a lot...for my selfish reasons, i wanted her to stay so i would have the company to work with but i know her life is waiting for her and she needs to do this for her own self. I've said goodbyes to friends before, but i had forgotten the feeling. today, i remember how i felt when i said goodbye to my friends before i came here and i never recall tears. now, there are tears in my eyes. selfish tears, but nevertheless, tears.